I am Late 7 day..

Alhamdulilah,

Syukur ..Allah has give me chance to breath and live happily until this minute...

Nevertheless stress never give up on me..
this time is about Miss P..and my tiny hope being a mommy...
every pray..it always be ...
“Rabbi Hab Liy Min-Ladunka Zurriyatan-Tayyibah Innaka Sam‘iud-Du’aa.”

Translation: O my Lord! Bless me from Yourself pious offspring, for surely You are the One who listens to Prayer.

Surah Al-Imran:38-“Rabbana Hablana Min Azwajina Wa Zurriyatina Qurrata Aayuniu,WajaAlna LilmuttaQina Imama.”-Translation: O Lord! Bestow on us from our wives and our offspring, the comfort of our eyes, and make us leader of those who have fear (in Allah).

Surah Al-Furqan: 74-“Rabbi habli Minas Solihin.”Translation: Oh Lord! Grant me [a child] from amongst the righteous.

 Surah Al-Saffat: 100-“Wa Zakariaa is nada Rabbu hu Rabbi La Tazarni Fardan Wa Anta Khairul Warithin.”Translation: And mention [Zakariah], When he called to his Lord, “My Lord, do not leave me alone [with no heir], while you are the best of inheritors.”

lets start with..Today..i getting stress where is Miss P..now it is already 7 day delay from the date i suppose to Mense ...ermmm... i did my google..digging up..why is my P missing in action..it is about lucrin injection given by hospital...or am i pregnant..i did do UPT test on 4 days of delay on evening..the result is negative..

Lucrin is to stop my period so my cyst can get into smaller size..so i can get pregnant..
Since im so curious of the delay..*i start to ask people from klinik Hamid Arshad ..they said it is because the lucrin process it get effected easily to my body hormon..

*secondly i did ask my officer who was on lucrin treatment ..she were also said the same thing..

*Thirdly, i did ask Effa ..if have any haunch ...she said maybe because of my cyst..

lastly i can conclude that Miss P wont come because of Lucrin is hormonizing --- my hormon..

im not counting day anymore...

The only thing can cure my endometriosis is being pregnant..but Allah Maha pengasih dan Penyayang..Maha Mentadbir Alam..im just tiny ash who beg for mercy and chance to be a mom to all children and perhap can cure my endometrosis...

when i coming back from mosque.. i am gonna tell my self..its gonna be alrite..let take another 2  lucrin treatment  until my cyst getting smaller...so i can conceive...

Pray..insha Allah.. Allah may heard our prayer...

My hard day in my life

there is so many thing i wish i would have. i want to be a wife and have a wonderful life with my husband nevertheless life are not according to what i want ..it all about how we handle life that we never aspect what would happen.
There is a lots of number that i wish for that never gonna happen but i will never stop to pray for better life.

This current time i having difficulty to counter my massive problem which keep on coming to me like a heavy rain. i was crying all the way to cope and to be calm.in the same time mohd shah not in the shape of helping me at all.he keep himself very silent and try to push me away from him.i never felt the feeling being push away like i was stranger to him.i just couldn't get it. we being friend for few year and i always his side even tough he never try to share it with me.

the truth is i love him to much and in the same time we keep hurting each other in the odd manner.

my mom trying to be my savoir but i could not bear any of it.she trying to help me out but i could not received it because she was my mother and i don't want to cause her trouble.

i feel my world getting more tiny than ever.seem what I've done before infected me a lot. but there is no other power greater than Allah and Allah will grant my wish.

Ya Allah,
due every massive problem that occurred in my life, make me stronger to face it. give me a way to solve it.give me courage to survive this tremendous pain. if love not bound me to the other who love me...make me bound to them, if shah was so far away from me , make his heart more closer than before. make him love me than before.


life is always a winding road,
there is always a task to complete,
there is always lesson to be learn but have faith
Allah give us the test to let us learn the wonderful way to experience life risk in every choice you make for your life.

i loike

Iphone 4

23 Oktober 2010,

im gonna company mybf to purchase Iphone ..not me who buying it..but himself.

i woke up at early morning around 4 am..got to read some note ..tuesday will be exam..5.30 am i cook kueh tiow goreng..then i realize that i wrongly bought tomato sause instead of chilie. how come i didn't check the label...once i open the cap, it hard to repudiate the tomato. therefore just bear the tomato and buy another chili sause. At 630am i perfom subuh prayer then dress up and go fetch my bf. once i reach his house i have wait for a couple minute..he seem not acknowlegde about me waited for him in front of his house..i've been wait for him about 25 minute then he show his sleeping face not point of getting mad at early morning therefore i drove off to KLCC while he can get his sleep since his haven't sleep yet.
7.45 we reach KLCC ..we take the escalator to go the concourse level ,it turn out to be so many people were waiting there.. its been a very long queue..i'm afraid that i have no chance to be one of the 150 unit to be sell on that day. since my bf not feeling well i have to queue all the way..its freaky tired..total painful being standing for 3 hour.
then i got pissed off .. i don't care ..seem i was the one who queue on the line. mean i have to have one of this gadget. at 11.30 am i got the queue number 7118 and 7119.
Maxis promoter told us to wait until we got sms from them.

since my bf was not feeling well and he haven't sleep since yesterday. he had to lay his head down otherwise he will fainted. which i had to carry him..while he was laying down on seat which has been provide by KLCC management at the park, a security officer blown his wisel asked not to lay down the seat. My bf must be tired since he only sleep for few minute.

Few hour of waiting, i received sms from maxis and ask us to standby. we went to maxis centre pay maxis bill and seat for about half and hour with a heavy cooler till i fell cold.Later we have lunch at KFC nearby at maxis booth located at concourse level. After done with lunch we when to photostat my ic and driving licence and check my eligible to enter into 24 month contract with maxis.
about an hour of waiting, my turn number were called.i have to fill up few detail and suddenly it turn out that system was not working then i have to wait until maxis called for changing plan to Ivalue 1. another hour of waiting the maxis called to sign the 24 month contract with maxis.

Finally at 6pm all transaction was complete then we heading to Sg Wang to buy the screen protector with the cover. the best part is the whole day mohd shah didn't bath.

its really hell of the day buying IPhone 4 . then we take dinner and i got home at 11pm.

my Bossan day

Its been a long period, i almost forgot that i have blog to tell everything about nothing.
today is my not actually a bosan day..but..i don't know either i am very good in wasting my time...huhu...during my lunch hour..i have spend it on editing my picture with my sweetheart..anyway i feel good on it...i love to use my sense of creativity..
recently, i have nothing on mind..a bit busy doing assignment..and other thing which is reasonable and relevant to my subject matter of my life. eg- like eat, food, sleep, bath, work,FB, email and other stuff.

on 26 oktober 2010, i have exam on My hubungan etnik..Prof Azam have remind us..to read more on FC, Plural stuff..and etc. i have to prepare on Contract and MLS..ouchhh...this wow to..how could i remember most of the note that i have made..

what ever it is...please let my mind focus.. remember score is ultimate goal. even it is difficult to remember.. but..please..help yourself..nobody will help but only me can help myself.
i have so much in mind..but i hate to type it. seem when even i type it...it getting slow and slow.

Today my classmate got sms from my lecture threaten her to give zero mark for her assignment..that is cruel..how could her to that..yam doesn't have the skill to add up her end note and footnote.i ask her to repair by add up the reference and the footnote in order to get better mark. carry mark is something can help us go thru the painful event like exam result.

other than that, on tomorrow which is Saturday in the morning , i have to queue wit my lovely bf to get the I phone 4. i want to have that gadget..frankly speaking..i'm going to be broke to have it ..monthy payment for the iphone is RM57 plus with the line bill RM100..all sum to RM157...
therefore i have to forget the iphone ..please just get out ..!!!

wanted to print contract note..

i have lost myself

today..
i feel i lost myself...
i couldn't find myself..
I've receive so much...
i don't want to know to much...
i'm suffocated... i couldn't breath...
i don't want to be depart...
away from someone i love...
what i have now is much that i can imagine...
i have my family...
i have shah...
in very meantime..he doesn't me around..
hope he can feel me ...
i miss him...
i miss his smile..
i miss his voice...
i miss to hear his scold...
i miss everything about him...
yet i realize..i done so many thing...i hurt you in so many way...
hopefully u can forgive me..
and i love you...for what you are...but not for what not...
im sorry...
i wish i can't erase everything...
but...what i can say is...
i've lost myself...

27 birthday

A birthday, as the term implies, is the anniversary of the particular day on which a person was born. Birthday is a time filled with surprises, gifts, blessings, wishes, entertainment and joys. It is a time for assorting cakes, balloons, friends, relatives and family. This day is a very special day in every person’s life and everyone enjoys moving one step ahead in life.

Birthdays make us cherish some old moments and look forward for some new experiences and anticipation in life. Everyone on their special day looks ahead for a challenging and splendid future. We all celebrate birthdays as a remark of completing one more memorable year in the span of life, a new milestone towards eternity. No matter what the age, caste and creed, birthdays are always celebrated with fun and excitement.

im gonna throw a "Kenduri Kesyukuran" for mom and family and friend.money is not a problem, i have receive so many good thing around me and alhamdulilah. This life are created with bless

10 Tip Rancang Perkahwinan

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1. KENALPASTI BAJET YANG DISEDIAKAN UTK MAJLIS PERKAHWINAN
Rancanglah majlis yang sesuai ngan bajet yang ada. Jgn keterlaluan dan lupa diri sehingga terpaksa berhutang keliling pinggang. 'Ukurlah baju di badan sendiri'

2. MOHON CUTI SEKURANG-KURANGNYA 2 MINGGU LEBIH AWAL
Sebelum itu, maklumkan tentang perkahwinan anda kepada majikan/ketua anda. Paling penting siapkan segala kerja yang telah dimulakan. Ia agar tiada pihak yang rasa terbeban sementara anda bergembira membuat persiapan.

3. HAL MENGISI DOKUMEN PERKAHWINAN
Perkara ini sering dipandang enteng oleh bakal pengantin sedangkan ia adalah perkara terpenting. Oleh itu anda haruslah mengisi dan menghantarnya kpd pihak berwajib lebih awal. Pastinya anda tidak perlu berkejar2 utk pulang ke kampung pd saat-saat akhir.

4. TEMPAHAN KAD JEMPUTAN
Setelah kedua-dua pihak mencapai kata sepakat mengenai tarikh perkahwinan, anda seharusnya tidak membuang masa dan terus menempah kad. Persiapan awal membolehkan anda membuat tinjauan harga dan reka bentuk yang diinginkan. Jgn lupa menyenaraikan nama jemputan dan bilangannyaagar tidak menempah kuantiti kad yang berlebihan.

5. TEMPAHAN KHIDMAT FOTOGRAFI
Kenangan manis perkahwinan pasti dikenang seumur hidup. Tempahlah khidmat fotografi lebih awal agar anda boleh mendapatkan mereka yang terbaik dalam bidang ini. Pada masa yang sama mengelakkan diri dicaj lebih mahal kerana membuat tempahan pada saat2 akhir.

6. PILIHAN BAJU PENGANTIN DAN PILIHAN MAK ANDAM
Anda akan mempunyai pilihan yang lebih banyak dan berpeluang mendapatkan pakaian yang tercantik. Paling menarik anda mempunyai masa utk mencari butik dan harga mengikut bajet. Penampilan anda pada hari istimewa pasti lebih anggun dengan adanya sentuhan mak andam. Jika bertindak lebih awal, anda boleh mendapatkan khidmat mak andam kegemaran.

7. WALI DAN SAKSI YANG SAH
Tanpa wali dan saksi yang sah, majlis perkahwinan tidak dapat dilangsungkan dengan lancar. Bakal pengantin perempuan haruslah memastikan kedua-dua pihak ini bersedia dan sedia maklum akan tarikh dan masanya. Jgn biarkan kesilapan komunikasi menjejaskan majlis perkahwinan anda.

8. INSURANS SEBAGAI JAMINAN
Ramai tidak menyedari kepentingan insurans dalam situasi sebegini. Tidak salah jika anda mengambil insurans sebagai satu jaminan. Maklumlah malang tidak berbau. Andainya anda ditimpa musibah, perancangan yang telah dilakukan tidak lebur begitu sahaja. Anda boleh mendapatkan tuntutan dan tidak perlu menangguhkan majlis yang telah lama dirancang.

9. UJIAN SARINGAN HIV
Beberapa negeri telah mewajibkan bakal pasangan pengantin menjalani ujian saringan HIV. Jika anda berasal dari negeri berkenaan, setkan hari yang sesuai untuk mengambilnya. Jgn lakukan pada saat yang genting kerana byk prosedur yang perlu diikuti sebelum mendapat keputusan.

10. GAYA PENAMPILAN BERSERI
Bagi tampil berseri-seri pada hari berbahagia, bakal pengantin perempuan haruslah mendapatkan rawatan kesihatan dan kecantikan di spa. Pelbagai pakej yang disediakan dan anda boleh memilih mengikut kemampuan masing2. Rawatan ini boleh menambah keyakinan anda utk berdepan dengan para jemputan pada hari bersejarah itu.

today is better than yesterday..

i suppose today will be a wonderful day and better than yesterday. i have so many thing in mind
i would like share some of it. what i have learn today is, do good thing to the other make me feel good. Dont ever feel bad if you give help in the end you dont get anything , and please don't judge them , they just being human being but have faith there will be al.Dont be sad. Remember always that helping your friend and the other people around you will make u peace, and don't ever bother to get anything from them. doing them a favor will make u such a good person. i will think it as treatment by being the next best human being which exist ...

when i woke up, i'll pray and hope good thing will happen around me..in order to do so i have to make good thing to those people around me which subject in my to do list. Wheneven some evil thing come across my mind i have to wipe it off. There is good and bad exist within ourselves, i have to fight bad things within me which make my behavior be so unpleasant...

my war is within myself, to fight bad thing risen within me, i have to figure out what im gonna do next fighting against myself...to be a good human being, helping people who need the most and do expect anything from them, be consistence on everything which is good.

that all...

sha...

About Shah Birthday

4 April 1984

Your date of conception was on or about 13 July 1983 which was a Wednesday.

You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Aries.
Your Life path number is 3.

Your fortune cookie reads:
You find beauty in ordinary things, do not lose this ability.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 2, 5 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 7, 8 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445794.5.
The golden number for 1984 is 9.
The epact number for 1984 is 27.
The year 1984 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/2/1984 and ending 2/19/1985.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rat.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Hawk; your plant is Dandelion.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Paony, the second month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 2 Nisan 5744.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 3 Nisan 5744.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.10.15.10 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 10 tun 15 uinal 10 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 3 Rajab 1404 (1404-7-3).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 22 April 1984.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 22 April 1984.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 7 March 1984.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 10 June 1984.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 17 June 1984.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 25 September 1984.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Sunday, 15 April 1984.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 6 March 1984.

As of 6/24/2010 12:45:50 AM EDT
You are 26 years old.
You are 314 months old.
You are 1,368 weeks old.
You are 9,577 days old.
You are 229,848 hours old.
You are 13,790,925 minutes old.
You are 827,455,550 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Jamie Lynn Spears (1991)	Heath Ledger (1979)	David Blaine (1973)
Nancy McKeon (1966)	Robert Downey, Jr. (1965)	David Gavurin (1963)
Christine Lahti (1950)	Craig T. Nelson (1946)	Anthony Perkins (1932)
Maya Angelou (1928)	Muddy Waters (1915)	Frances Langford (1914)
John Cameron Swayze (1906)	Arthur Murray (1895)

Top songs of 1984

Like a Virgin by Madonna	When Doves Cry by Prince
Jump by Van Halen	Footloose by Kenny Loggins
What's Love Got to Do with It by Tina Turner	Against All Odds by Phil Collins
I Just Called to Say I Love You by Stevie Wonder	Ghostbusters by Ray Parker Jr.
Karma Chameleon by Culture Club	Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go by Wham!

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.74833659491194 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Tuesday.
Your lucky number is 9.
Your ruling planet(s) is Mars & Pluto.
Your lucky dates are 9th, 18th, 27th.
Your opposition sign is Libra.
Your opposition number(s) is 6.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 284 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 27 candles.

Those 27 candles produce 27 BTUs,
or 6,804 calories of heat (that's only 6.8040 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.09 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1984 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1984 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1984 in the US there were 2,487,000 marriages (10.5%) and 1,155,000 divorces (4.9%)
In 1984 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1984 the population of Australia was approximately 15,677,282.
In 1984 there were approximately 234,034 births in Australia.
In 1984 in Australia there were approximately 108,655 marriages and 43,124 divorces.
In 1984 in Australia there were approximately 109,914 deaths.

Your birth flower is DAISY

Your birthstone is Diamond

The Mystical properties of Diamond

Diamonds are said to increase personal clarity to help one see things clearly as well as be straight-forward and honest. Supposedly, the higher quality the diamond, the better it is supports these qualities.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Opal, Quartz, White Sapphire

Your birth tree is

Rowan, the Sensitivity

Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

There are 184 days till Christmas 2010!
There are 197 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

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About my birthday

15 July 1983

Your date of conception was on or about 22 October 1982 which was a Friday.

You were born on a Friday
under the astrological sign Cancer.
Your Life path number is 7.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Be prepared to accept a wondrous opportunity in the days ahead!

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445530.5.
The golden number for 1983 is 8.
The epact number for 1983 is 16.
The year 1983 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/13/1983 and ending 2/1/1984.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Pig.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Woodpecker; your plant is Wild Rose.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Paopy, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 5 Av 5743.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 6 Av 5743.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.10.2.6 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 10 tun 2 uinal 6 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Friday, 4 Shavval 1403 (1403-10-4).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 3 April 1983.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 8 May 1983.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 16 February 1983.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 22 May 1983.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 29 May 1983.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Thursday, 8 September 1983.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 29 March 1983.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 15 February 1983.

As of 6/24/2010 12:41:56 AM EDT
You are 26 years old.
You are 323 months old.
You are 1,406 weeks old.
You are 9,841 days old.
You are 236,184 hours old.
You are 14,171,081 minutes old.
You are 850,264,916 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Emily Roeske (1991)	Brian Austin Green (1973)	Forest Whitaker (1961)
Jesse Ventura (1951)	Linda Ronstadt (1946)	Jan-Michael Vincent (1944)
Alex Karras (1935)	Clement Clarke Moore (1779)	Rembrandt Van Rijn (1606)

Top songs of 1983

Every Breath You Take by Police	Billie Jean by Michael Jackson
Flashdance by Irene Cara	Say Say Say by Paul McCartney & Michael Jackson
All Night Long by Lionel Richie	Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler
Down Under by Men at Work	Beat It by Michael Jackson
Islands In the Stream by Kenny Rogers & Dolly Parton	Baby, Come to Me by Patti Austin & James Ingram

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.85166340508806 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Monday.
Your lucky number is 2 & 7.
Your ruling planet(s) is Moon.
Your lucky dates are 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th.
Your opposition sign is Capricorn.
Your opposition number(s) is 8.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 21 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 27 candles.

Those 27 candles produce 27 BTUs,
or 6,804 calories of heat (that's only 6.8040 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.09 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1983 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1983 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1983 in the US there were 2,444,000 marriages (10.5%) and 1,179,000 divorces (5%)
In 1983 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1983 the population of Australia was approximately 15,483,496.
In 1983 there were approximately 242,570 births in Australia.
In 1983 in Australia there were approximately 114,860 marriages and 43,525 divorces.
In 1983 in Australia there were approximately 110,084 deaths.

Your birth flower is DELPHINIUM

Your birthstone is Ruby

The Mystical properties of Ruby

Ruby is said to open one's heart to love.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Carnelian

Your birth tree is

Elm Tree, the noble-mindedness

Pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, tends to a know-all-attitude and making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humour, practical.

There are 184 days till Christmas 2010!
There are 197 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

What is my emotional IQ?

My emotional IQ?

This emotional intelligence test consists of two parts; a self-report portion and an ability portion. The test assesses your capacity to recognize your own emotions and those of others; understand how best to motivate yourself; become close to others; and manage your own feelings and those of others. Emotional intelligence contributes a great deal to your potential in life. A poor emotional intelligence can hold a brilliant individual back from achieving his or her goals, while a good EIQ can help someone who might otherwise struggle achieve success in life.

Snapshot Report

Self-report Component

Subscale IQ score = 88

Subscale percentile = 21

According to your self-report answers, your emotional intelligence is somewhat poor. People who score like you may at times feel that they have trouble dealing with their own emotions and those of others. They sometimes struggle to overcome difficulties in their lives and they are not always able to control their moods. It may be hard for them to understand how best to motivate themselves to overcome obstacles and reach their goals. In addition, they find social interactions difficult at times, for several reasons. They may have trouble allowing themselves to get close with others, finding it difficult to be vulnerable enough to establish intimacy or perhaps lacking understanding of, or comfort with, social interactions. Perhaps by working on your problem areas, you can become more confident in dealing with your own emotions and those of others.

Im just Human Being..

15 June 2010,

Today was totally out. I'm just human being, trying to be nice to people but I don't know, it make thing so much worse and complicated that I can imagine. Was is bad for being nice, I’m just being a good friend and suggest any good idea maybe can help him to overcome his bored in order to wait his turn to get marry to someone.

Am I that bad? What wrongs with me? It all my fault, how could I ever care for those people who doesn’t want their life to be change. I wish I have very bad heart, doesn’t even want to care any of those people who don’t care about their own life. Why should I care, why should I give any good idea or any good word might help them endure their life. Why don’t I leave them just like they love to be?

Ya Allah,

“Give me strength and courage, my heart want to give good deed to the people around me.”

I love all people to be united by the name of Allah then I give word based on what has been written in Al- Quran. I know I’m not knowledgeable but what I have said just simple and minor. I’m not qualified to lecture but after all, what that I gave very light and every people on the age 22 – 30 could be understood.

Most of people that I give my point of view based on Islam but people hate me for being nice and such pretender. People will think of that I’m very good in talking but not doing it. What I need is a good friend who can remain and advice me about what I’ve done wrong. Good friend will tell us the ugly truth about ourselves.

I don’t know what I should do now, what can I think of is only to be good to everyone. Impression was so far worst; it is only my suggestion and good word. If it is not suitable to the condition of mind and purpose, it’s ok.

I will live in the hard way cause that life want me to be. Because no pain no gain.Therefore I've someone who love me the most and will hate me at all cost. until here and we meet again.

This journal is something that i can pull everything out. if one day i 'll not be around to write again and the this journal will remain for those people hate me and love me.

i have no intention to make anyone or everyone mad at me or make someone hurt for my unexpected behavior . I'm truly sorry, i only want to share which is good and if it is bad please advice me cause I'm very poor in my judgment and my conduct.

the best part is i love my mom , dad , my family and definitely my best friend and lover SHAH. the end

People don't Listen

14 June 2010,

Alhamdulilah, its been 2 month I've been in Mdi, its was an honor to be apart of this department. My office was very near to Mosque and i have learn , its feel very calm to do pray on the mosque. My CEO was very strict and very particular to any discipline toward his all staff include me. He was in TOP management post but he always check on his staff either all procedure been follow or not. The purpose is only to make sure all his staff be discipline and integrity is a must.
Today he make a spot check again, i get his point. He want to make sure the department that he handle are doing great in every aspect of life. If he was not doing his role very well , in Akhirat he will be question either he has done his responsible. I hope he will be in this department until all of people in this department will get his main point.

As Leader, it really a big weight on the shoulder, the responsibility...how can i be a leader in the future because in order to be strict people will not like me. Hopefully Allah may give courage and strength to be such great leader in the eyes on Allah.

Recently,
its been a very hard day.. i don't get it..why its very hard to give a good word to certain people. why people love making fun for someone mistake. love say bad thing, love to encourage bad things and bad impression. why its hard for people to love each other....
its very important to give advise, because life ain't good enough with advice and guidance. For those people who hate me for all advice , i just want to share life is easy if we think it is. The main thing is Allah has to be all the time in our heart, if there is always hatred there will no peace in our heart.

In the same time, i need to find a very decent friend who can advice me anything and everything about how to be decent person. Nowadays, friends like that, its hard to find. Seem i be living in the world full of hatred. Why must Muslim hate each other?? why its hard to forgive and to forget? . The fact is, human is very good in making a mistake and repeat it again and again. But someday, they will learn their mistake its all matter of time.

I know life is all about learning process to gain experience ,vein and pain. In every pain, we learn to overcome and to avoid certain situation that may cause the pain. After all i learn my lesson, SABAR is all matter in order to be tough and pray to Allah for strength.
that all from now, its been 5.30 pm and i 'll be write again in my next post.

1st result on Law Degree

11 june 2010...
Finally , i got my result , last nite i been dreaming that i fail for malaysian legal system, but when i see my result i got B, but contract i got C. Nevertheless its not gonna make myself happy. i want to get 3 pointer. Next semester will be my war for getting A for every paper that i take.

when i got my result, i wanted to cry very badly. On the day before i seat for my contract exam, every single thing like important case i can't remember,its been mess up all over the place. i got very massive headache, i can't read any of note and my head feel like to explode. In the same time , i got kneel pain...which is the pain make my movement uneasy. What matter is , i got C , which is not my aspectation. i got everything in line, i work very hard on contract, but by the time i'm gonna pull it out, i got massive head which lead me to total failure. i love contract very well, its more easy than Malaysian legal system but luck it not on myside. I have to face the C thing and work out for the next semester.

Alhamdulilah, eventough my CGPA was not that good, hopefully i can do better for next ride. This is not easy to handle with, i have to struggle in order to get good grade which is A. Timetable for next semester will be on my next list, and i have to be organize in order to perform and get A. Everything has to start early from the beginning otherwise im gonna repeat my same mistake which its equal to total failure. opefully , its not gonna happen, i have to be more displine , more harder to push myself to the limit.
Too much talking was not very good which its lead to make more mistake ....
that all from now.

Days that i hate the most

2 June 2010,

ermmm...Today penat sgt...i ve calling all the state since morning till evening and done few thing but afterall i'm bit full and tired. i feel peace and i need put an effort to be consistence to any good thing that i been doing lately.Hopefully i have faith and courage to overcome all kind of negative thought.Early in the morning , i was thinking about being positive and be motivated toward myself. My main objective is only to get rid my bad and dirty attitude inside my brain..Honestly..its really hard to make a change.

Things i've thinkin bout Boolate.
1. its been crucial.
2. it seem to be dead end.
3. How can i make him reply back the sense and the feel
4. i have no idea and what should i do???
5. Anything to everything its seem never been enough at his eyes.

how can i conclude ...Alhamdulillah..Hope better for tomorow

My Numerology

If your Life-Path number is SEVEN, depth of thinking and the ability to gain knowledge from most everything will be something you’ve experienced since an early age. SEVEN is considered the ‘spiritual’ number and such qualities as intuition will be prominent.

Those with a SEVEN Life-Path are usually peaceful and affectionate. You may not have many friends as a SEVEN, but the ones you do have will be for life. You’re a compassionate and caring friend. As a SEVEN, you will likely be able to sense deception from others quickly and you’re not likely to be wrong. A balance between time with others and private time taken to be alone with your thoughts and dreams is essential.

It is common for SEVENS to be seen as aloof due to their selective socializing and required time alone. If the truth be told, many SEVENS feel a sense of insecurity. This may be because much of a SEVENS ‘reality’ is not tangible. You will rely heavily on instincts and intuition. At times this insecurity can lead to pessimism or loneliness. Mood swings are also not uncommon.

SEVEN personalities are generally reserved and analytical in their assessments of truth. As a SEVEN, you will need to find and draw your own conclusions with evidence before accepting other’s notions. Key qualities/words for a SEVEN Life-Path are analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious and meditating.

The life purpose for a SEVEN is to experience life to the fullest through learning and processing knowledge. Perhaps even more so, a SEVEN needs to learn how to trust in themselves and their deeper feelings about life around them. The development of a sense of security can be a life long challenge with periods of time that are marked with a lack of emotional stability.

The SEVEN that chooses to not get out into the world and to grasp all there is to learn, can become negative and selfish. An attitude that says the world owes them can also happen. To experience life at it’s utmost, a SEVEN must face their fears and insecurities and face whatever comes their way. There is much a SEVEN can give to the world around.

My Thing in Horospoce

Symbol: The Crab

Element: Water

Group: Emotional

Polarity: Negative

Favorable Colors: White, Silver

Key Body Part: Stomach, Breasts

Chinese Zodiac Counterpart: Goat Ruling Planet: Moon

Cross/Quality: Cardinal

House Ruled: Fourth

Opposite Sign: Capricorn

Lucky Gem: Pearls

Period: Jun 21 - Jul 22

Deeply intuitive and sentimental, Cancer can be one of the most challenging Zodiac signs to get to know. Emotion runs strong for this sign, and when it comes to family and home, nothing is more important. Sympathetic and empathetic, Cancerians are greatly attuned to those around them. Devotion is the keyword for this sign, making them wonderfully sensitive people to be around.

Strengths:
Compassion, emotional sensitivity, fierce protection of loved ones, tenacity.

Weaknesses:
Manipulative, indirect conflict, clinging to the past, insecure, packrat.

Charismatic marks:
Medium build, round face, prominent breasts, a tendency to take charge.

Likes:
Relaxing near or in water, art, home-based hobbies, a good meal with friends, helping loved ones.

Dislikes:
Strangers, revealing of personal life, any criticism of Mom.

Best environment:
Cancer will always be most comfortable at home, close to family, familiar things, and dear friends.

Cancer in Love:

"I feel" is the key phrase for Cancer, and this is all too evident when it comes to love. Tender and gentle, Cancerians will show sensitivity with their lovers without a second thought. They love readily and choose a mate who can understand them as much as possible. Superficial or overly ambitious partners are not well-suited. The Cancer lover will look for someone who is equally intuitive. They are devoted partners, love children, and marry for life.

Friends and Family:

Traditional and maternal, Cancerians make excellent parents. In fact, all aspects of family are number one to this sign. This can be seen in the homes they make and in the dedication to duty they display. Cancer natives are often willing to overlook personality conflicts when it comes to family simply because they are related. Whatever needs to be done, you can count on a Cancer native to go the distance for a family member. They are deeply sentimental and are diligent about keeping family albums and histories intact. Passing on stories to the next generation is a favorite pastime.

When it comes to friendships, the Cancer person is very helpful. They're almost always willing to lend a hand, providing it doesn't conflict with family obligations. Friends are held in high regard and are generally of like mind. Because the Cancerian generally prefers the home scene rather than going out, folks who enjoy visiting and sharing activities such as cards or at-home dining are top picks for buddies. Although their deeply intuitive, heart-not-head personality makes Cancerians very sympathetic, it can also make them a little hard to understand. Time is the cure for this!

Career and Money:

Cancerians can be as tenacious as they are sensitive. When there's a job to do, they roll up their sleeves and get to it. They especially shine when performing caregiving or related tasks, and they make excellent nurses. Other career ambitions include housekeeper, gardener, and journalist. Cancerians' love of country gives them the base to being outstanding politicians. The need to feel as though they are making a difference, however small, is essential for this sign to feel fulfilled.

Security is of utmost importance to the Cancer native, and money is no different. Making money generally comes easily, and putting it away is usually what happens. Cancerians are not overspenders; in fact, they are far more apt to invest a few dollars and make their money grow. Many Cancer personalities see money as a symbol of their status in life and are inspired to build healthy bank accounts as a result. Cancers are resourceful and manage their time and money well.